Karlie and I hung out in Ty’s room Wednesday night and had a little jam-out session. After a string of Jason Mraz and John Mayer songs, Ty started playing this: “Here Is Our King” by David Crowder. Karlie got really excited, saying this was one of her favorites, and it didn’t dawn on me what it was until they started singing.
This was also one of my favorites when my faith in Christ was my life. Listening to it and hearing Ty and Karlie belt it out just made me bubble over with emotion. It reminded me not only of my best friend, Stephen, who lead worship for youth group in while we were in high school, but also of the security and sureness I held at that point in my life because of my “faith”.
People have always told me to question my assumptions and question the things that I have been taught since childhood, and I did question my faith. I questioned the reality of Christ’s love, the involvement of God in my everyday life, the passion of my Christian friends, the naivety of it all, and even God Himself. I don’t regret that I did. I needed to approach my life and faith with a more critical attitude. I am happy that I stopped acting like I was this great Christian person when I had no idea what that even meant. All of these “Christianisms” I’ve experienced since I was born meant nothing if taken with the wrong approach.
It comes down to love. That is the basis of Christianity, belief in God, and God Himself. It’s about dropping your pride and loving. That’s it.
Here’s the problem: what does that mean?!?!?!? “Love is patient, love is kind…” yada yada yada… Could someone put that into REAL terms?
I just want to experience something real, not something emotional, not something stupid and fleeting.
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